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Chatting with Lilith and Jesus

June, 2006

I’ve been weary about talking to the different Gods and Goddesses who are in my life. When I was a Christian I talked to God all the time and gave up when I never felt like I was getting an answer. Albeit I was usually asking for something from that God, a being I considered outside of myself whom I thought much greater than me. It never had occurred to me until later that maybe God was inside of me and that I had all the answers myself. I know of psychics who talk to and listen to their guides frequently. I have pagan friends who tell me about the messages they receive from their spirit guides, Gods and Goddesses. And then there’s Wanda, my psychic friend who listens to what she calls ‘the Voices’ as they give her insight into her own life issues, and those of others. She’s also had several clear one-on-ones with Jesus himself. For me, talking to and actually hearing my guides just felt like something I couldn’t do, or maybe was just too ‘far out there’ for me to want to try.


Well, I finally spoke to and ‘heard’ one of my guides, the Goddess Lilith. It was all so curious. I couldn’t imagine how I would actually get a guide’s message. In my studies of psychic messages I have learned that messages can come in many ways, but the 3 main ways are clairvoyance, clairaudience and clairsentience. Clairvoyance is when you ‘see’ images in your mind, whether moving or still. This might mean seeing auras, angels, apparitions, etc. Clairaudience is when you hear voices of those that are on the ‘other side,’ maybe of those who have passed on, of spirit guides, higher selves, of gods/goddesses. This can also include hearing music or sounds. Clairsentience is having a feeling about someone that you have no reason to know. It’s having that ‘gut feeling,’ hunches, or dreams about someone or something. You don’t know why you know, but you know.


Since I believe that the Goddess is within me, I couldn’t fathom how I would get a response from Lilith, let alone when that response would come. I was in a very relaxed and open state. I had just finished a very intense and intuitive yoga session, going deep into poses as I felt the need come out of my body. I had taken all my yoga attire off early in the session out of an urge to feel completely free of any outside pressure to my physical being and to watch how my body moved in and out of each pose. As I was ending my session, thoughts started coming to me which were causing my emotions to come rising out of my chest and into my eyes, flowing out in the form of tears. I watched myself in the mirror, like an observer, while the emotions just flooded my eyes. Tired of feeling so much pain from being so emotional, I finally decided to ask for help. I called on Lilith, asking her to be with me and help me get some answers to some disturbing questions. As I would formulate a question I started noticing the answer coming out in the question. I’d ask another question only to notice again that the answer was inside my question. It was that weird feeling of knowing that as I am me and the Goddess is within me, and I hold all the answers, so does the question contain the answer within it. And then, as I was looking for a word to describe a part of a question, I got a visual of the word I was looking for, and how it related to the big picture, thus again, answering my question within the question. It was strange yet comfortably familiar at the same time. I knew I was getting answers to some long held questions, as I knew the answers were coming from inside of me. Maybe it wasn’t the first time it has ever happened, but it was the first time I really understood and acknowledged it as it happened.


Since then I have called on my other guides and discovered that my psychic messages usually are transmitted to me as clairvoyance, although occasionally I have picked up scents, which is known as clairalience. I see images in my mind, so subtly that now I understand how they can be overlooked as though they were my own wandering thoughts. This is one of the challenges a person faces when learning to recognize their psychic messages: distinguishing from the thoughts one might bring into their mind and when they are being transmitted. It helps to relax the mind and try not to think of anything except a blank screen or a calm image like space and allow the images or thoughts to come.


My friend Wanda is clairvoyant, clairsentient and clairaudient. She sees, hears and talks to spirits, hears ‘the Voices’ that guide her and sees, feels, hears and communicates with Jesus Christ. He is the only one she really knows of to call upon and who has helped her in the past and more importantly, with whom she feels a deep sense of love and calm. She put a ‘call’ into Jesus a couple of weeks ago. She disappeared from me for about a week. My email messages were not getting to her and she wasn’t returning my phone calls. Knowing I was expecting to meet up with her later in the week she finally called to make contact. She then explained that she had been having a horrific week, with several nights of really bad dreams with evil images. She didn’t even want to explain how grotesque they appeared to her. The Voices told her she was being discouraged from her newly chosen path as psychic healer. She was lighting candles all over her house, shielding herself and her closest loved ones energetically and just having a hard time dealing with the negative energies. She then sat, relaxed, breathed deeply and slowly and then called Jesus’ name many times in her mind, as if she was dialing and kept getting a busy tone. She kept on calling him until she felt she reached him. She knew she finally had a ‘breakthrough communication’ when she started feeling tingly. She described it as soft electric pulses, like a pleasant sort of massage, like when you sit on those chairs that have massage modes and you control the intensity of the pulse. It was a nice gentle pulse that soothed the muscles and relaxed her even more. She then asked him to protect and deliver her from evil. After this she felt mellow, empowered and very firm in thought of what was asked. She knew her request was being fulfilled. The images didn’t bother her after that.


The funny thing was that I had a feeling during the week that maybe she was doubting this path and didn’t want to talk to me because I supported it. She knew she needed to come to her own conclusion regarding what to do, although she knew this path was a positive one. So when we talked she asked me what I thought of all she was going through. I explained it all came down to love and fear.


Evil or negativity, however you wish to call it, is an interesting concept, one that pervades our lives in one degree or another. It feeds off of emotions like fear, anger, hate, doubt, and frustration. It can affect our physical health if we let it. Our chakras absorb negative energy and become blocked, eventually manifesting in the form of illness if not balanced and cleansed. Evil is the direct opposite of love, of everything positive and healing. Like yin and yang, without evil there is no love, without the negative there is no positive. But we need to see that the negative is a tool to strengthening the positive. It’s like not seeing a problem as much as an opportunity. Every time the grotesque spirits would come to Wanda she would get frustrated and angry. This only fueled their fire, I told her. If she could find the strength to lovingly escort them to her mind’s exit she’d probably get rid of them, like when my children misbehave (or behave negatively) and I lovingly yet firmly correct them. They needed to feel that she was sure of her decision to be on this path, that she felt this path to be one guided by love and that she wasn’t fearful of it. She had been raised with this fear of the psychic world and all that she experienced intuitively as she was growing up. Now as she was choosing to delve deeper into it her deepest fears were revealing themselves to her. When she called to Jesus she was calling to love energy, the very energy of our existence, the source of everything, of our universal consciousness. She was reaffirming the fact that she knew in her heart that this was right, and only then did the spirits go away. Love really does conquer all; it is the most powerful healer on the planet. She told me my thoughts on the matter gave her the confirmation that she needed and felt reassured once again of moving forward with her psychic expansions.


Love, fear, evil, Jesus, Lilith, grotesque psychic images: sounds like a good horror flick! But here we go, further and further off the deep end. Every time I think I am really weird I end up getting even weirder. At least now I know I am not alone and my thoughts do matter to someone, somewhere, out there, way out there, beneath the pale moonlight! And in the very, very end, it’s all about getting closer to our own essence, the one that was born of universal love. Now there’s absolutely nothing weird about that!


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author bio:


I am the Mother of 2 beautiful homeschooled children. I have been involved in earthly paganism and spirituality for over 10 years and in Wicca for 2. Caring for Gaia and living naturally have brought me closer to the Goddess. In the spiritual realm I have been developing my psychic awareness, energetic healing abilities, feminine spirit, power and sensuality along with Belly Dancing, Tantra and Yoga. My Inner Voice has been telling me to write, write, write! I can be reached at lotuswitch@bellsouth.net. I love to get feedback!! Blessings and Namaste.