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She Who is All – The Goddess of Ten Thousand Names

November, 2018


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The story of Sedna, the Mother and Mistress of the Sea, the Goddess of marine mammals, is, to me, one of sadness and betrayal.

In the Arctic Ocean of the Inuits, Sedna lived with her family. She was very beautiful and was wooed by many in Her community. She refused them, one and all. Her father, taking matters into his own hands, gave Her to an unknown hunter, in return for fish to keep the rest of his family fed. This unknown hunter was, in reality, a bird-spirit, and whisked Sedna away while She was asleep.

Another version states that Sedna went with the unknown hunter of Her own free will, as he promised Her a life filled with everything She could dream of – warmth, and food.

Either way, to Her dismay, Her new home was not as promised, as She found herself awakening on a high cliff, in a nest, surrounded by birds.

She got a message to Her father of Her plight. Her father, Anguta, attempted to help Her by putting Her into his kayak to return Her to their home. The birds, seeing this, flew after them, surrounded the kayak, seeking vengeance for the removal of Sedna from the nest.

To save himself, Anguta, threw his daughter overboard. She reached for the side of the kayak to save Herself and Her father cut off her fingers. As She brought her arms up to reach into the kayak, he then cut off Her arms. Sedna sank to the bottom of the sea.

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She became the Queen and the Goddess of the Deep, Her fingers and arms becoming the seals, walruses, whales, those ocean mammals most hunted by the Intuit.

Sedna lived, then, beneath the waves, in the Kingdom of Adlivan, the Intuit Land of the Dead, in a home-made of stone and the ribs of whales. She was responsible for sending the sea creatures to the human hunters to feed their families. She took Her responsibility seriously, but She had a provision that when one of them died, their souls would stay with their bodies for three days, whereupon they would bring news to Sedna of how the people behaved. If any of Her laws were broken, She would not send the food to the hunters. This brought Her pain.

When this happened, a Shaman had to visit Her, by passing through terrifying lands and tests, to heal and soothe Her, until Her pain had passed and things were put right once more.

Sculpture of Sedna in Nuuk, Greenland

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**My fingers were cut off then

I was kicked

I was hurt

I was wounded

I was lied to

I was betrayed

I was abandoned

My suffering was great

but down below in the deeps

in the heart of the ocean

where I was left to lie

I realized my powerlessness

the way my life was lived

helpless and afraid

always being done to

instead of doing

and saw what I did

As realization expanded my


fish and sea mammals

grew out of my cut fingers

I became “old food dish”

She who provided for her people

Victim no more**

**From “The Goddess Oracle by Amy Sophia Marashinsky. Image credit also goes to “The Goddess Oracle”.


About the Author:

Susan Morgaine is a Daughter of the Goddess, Witch, Writer, Teacher, Healer, and Yogini. She is a monthly columnist with Her writings can be found in The Girl God Anthologies, “Whatever Works: Feminists of Faith Speak” and “Jesus, Mohammed and the Goddess”, as well as Mago Publications “She Rises, Volume 2, and “Celebrating Seasons of the Goddess”. She has also been published in Jareeda and SageWoman magazines. She is a Certified Women’s Empowerment Coach/Facilitator through She is the author of “My Name is Isis”, one in the series of the “My Name Is………” children’s books published by The Girl God Publications. A Woman International, founded by Patricia Lynn Reilly. She has long been involved in Goddess Spirituality and Feminism, teaching classes and workshops, including Priestessing Red Tents within MA and RI. She is entering her 20th year teaching Kundalini Yoga and Meditation, being a Certified instructor through the Kundalini Research Institute, as well as being a Reiki Master. She is a member of the Sisterhood of Avalon. She can be found at and her email is

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Spiralled Edges

September, 2016

Spiralled Edges: Do Pagans Have Free Will?

Every time I think I have something figured out about myself, my Pagan practice, or the Gods something invariably happens to make me thing – do I still believe that?

Recently, I’ve been considering the idea of Free Will. Philosophers and religious scholars from every religion have been cussing and discussing it for centuries. Free Will or Pre-Destiny? Do we make the choices in our life, or are out paths laid out for us well in advance of our arrival.

Or, is it somewhere between these two extreme ideas?



Many years ago, I was talking to a friend (Religion and culture: Hindu) about the subject of Free Will and he shared with me something he had been taught by his father.

Free Will can be compared to a goat tethered to the ground. The goat can freely decide where it will walk, and what grass it wants to eat within the radius allowed by the length of the rope tethering it. Free Will in this example is an illusion, existing only within the limits placed upon the goat.

Likewise, as humans, we have an illusion of Free Will within the limits that have been placed upon us.

When they were young, my children liked the independence of being able to choose what they wore each day. I made my life easier, and gave them an illusion of choice, by limiting their choice. Red shirt or blue shirt, blue shorts or brown. How many of the choices that we make as adults are in their own way just as limited?

My own ponderings on this subject have been triggered as I have explored what it means for me to be a priestess of The Cailleach. For years, I have told people that they always have a choice on which God/s they might serve and how, and on what God/s may be their Patron, whether or not they choose to also dedicate themselves to that Deity. Over the years I have had Patron Gods and I have worked with them, but never had I been called to actually serve as a Priestess. Until now.

I will probably still tell others that they always have a choice, but I am beginning to question what illusions there might be between free will, and planned destinations. How much choice did I really have in agreeing to be a priestess of the Cailleach? Or was I presented with limited choices that ultimately would have led me to where I am now, regardless of which choice I had freely made.

How often as we move through life, thinking that we are exercising our own Free Will, do we discover through hindsight wasn’t quite what we thought. Free Will within the limits placed upon us by circumstance, location, and possibly even a Deity or two.

Over the past few months, She has shown me ways in which She has steered me in my decisions in order to bring me to this point in my life. Seemingly unrelated events, like the creating of my staff over 20 years ago and the move to the UK 18 years ago were each tiny links in a chain. How often, I ask myself, have these not-so coincidental occurrences steered me towards who I am today.

How often have each of us lived under an illusion that we were exercising our free will, never realising that we had been limited in the options we were given?

It is only now, looking backwards through time, that I can see the patterns and the points where The Cailleach had touched me, spoken to me, and guided me on my journey. Hers was the whisper in my ear telling me to select the sapling of a particular tree for my staff instead of a branch on another tree. Hers was the urge in my soul to move further east than I had ever anticipated from my Kansas home when I ended up in London instead of moving west to California. She is the one who led me to study the art of Soul Midwifery so that I may one day work with those who are at the end of their life.

I am still working out just what being a priestess of The Cailleach means. One thing she has made clear though, I am the one, with an occasional nudge from Her, who will be doing the working out. With or without Free Will.

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The Game of Letting Go…Our Journey Back to Freewill

October, 2014

We usually think the main goal of the game of chess is to “win.” There is a winner and a looser. This has also become the illusion of the “game of life.” If we follow the present societal map that exists all around us on a daily basis, we are told that we must play to win if we wish to be successful. We have lived in a greed based patriarchal society for so long now, with this constant internal battle ingrained so deeply within us. We have forgotten that the true purpose of the game of life is our own Self realization as sovereign beings, which entails understanding our full spectrum of expression amidst a playing field of polarities.

I see in our world, at present, an incredible transition occurring, where the divine feminine energy is rising up and reminding us of deeper truths: that the path is more important than the destination, that how we move and live in each moment is more important than the outcome or reward, and that each move we take impacts others, the Earth and future generations. I see women, and men, standing up to speak out, embodying this deeper feminine call, becoming beacons of light for us all and the caretakers of our future. But this is just the beginning…

The chess scene in the “Let Go” music video takes place between two personified queens, light and dark, representing the feminine uprising on the playing field of the 3D world. Towards the beginning of the video, amidst a poignant collage about our conditioning by the oppressive patriarchal system, we watch the white queen show up to an apartment where the black queen is waiting at a chess board by the fireplace, symbolizing that our shadow side is always waiting for us to reveal deeper truths about ourselves.

As the game begins and the white queen moves her first pawn forward, we are introduced to a blindfolded personified pawn in a white dress, stumbling through the woods one step at a time. To me, the pawn character represents “human existence”…we are born into this world with only clues to who we truly are and how/why we are here. We wear the metaphorical blindfold as we feel our way through life, step by step, making mistakes and learning about all that it means to be human. We are constantly bombarded by the rules, regulations and directions of society, that try to take advantage of our blindness and keep us from truly “seeing” who we are.

The theme of the dark horse in different stages of evolution and freedom plays another significant roll in the Let Go video. As the black queen begins to move her playing pieces, we are introduced to the “dark night,” a masked rider who pulls at the reigns of control, without revealing his identity, symbolizing the forced captivity of our own inner wild side. As the game progresses, we see moments where this dark horse stares into the depths of our being…an apparition from the future, an emotional reflection point to remind us of the great possibility within ourselves. Finally, during the second chorus, this powerful, wild black beauty starts running free through a snow storm to the mantra of “Let Go…let go…let go.” As we drop our reigns and embrace our deep flowing, creative spirit, light and dark no longer imprison us…we begin to taste freedom.

The chess game progresses until a crucial point where the white queen must sacrifice her queen piece to save the white pawn, which is getting close to the other side of the board, and symbolically closer to Self-actualization. If she does not make this crucial sacrifice, she understands that her pawn will be taken by the black queen and all will be lost. As viewers, we know this move would never happen in a normal game of chess and start to realize that the purpose of the game they are playing is not winning…but something much deeper.

As the white pawn makes her final move to the other side of the board, we see the pawn character stop stumbling around the woods, and drop to her knees…time stops. In a moment of epiphany, looking inward, she becomes acutely aware that her eyes have been covered all along. She reaches up and shakily removes the blindfold, looking at the world for the first time…all of nature moving around her in perfect synchrony. As she takes in her surroundings, she realizes that choosing to “see” was in her hands all the while…Freewill was always hers, she just had to remember.

With Freewill out of the bag, and full spectrum existence exposed, the black queen must reveal herself. As she lifts her dark veil to show her face, we realize that the white and black queens are the same person. Such is real life…we must let go of our conditioning and learn to embrace, and find balance with, our shadow side rather than fearing it. Our darkness is not separate from us but part of our whole selves. We see this message realized as the white queen reaches out to touch the hand of the black queen, symbolically merging into one fully realized Being.

Hally’s Hints

October, 2012

The Variable of Free Will


There is no doubt that change is coming. For some it is a simple, gentle reminder felt within the wind or the rain. For others it is the not so subtle metaphysical baseball bat to the head that something big is about to happen.


The purpose of change varies for many. For some it means the opportunity to grow, evolve and raise the vibration. For some it can mean letting go of old energies that are no longer serving them. Whatever the case change is imminent within life and it can be a choice of enabling this to do as it needs to or become aware of what takes place when it happens to make an appearance.


When working with energies and all that is related, energetic shifts, sometimes caused by planetary alignment and some not, have two core purposes. It can be on a personal level and one for the overall, often termed for the greater good. The extent of both is up to the individual because any change is and will be up to the one constant variable – free will.


Throughout history this is the only unpredictable variable that can and will impact the so called path of destiny. The path of destiny that many fear lacks freedom of choice was only ever meant as a guide. The fact is that most of the people already made a choice of why they came into this life, why they choose their parents, their family and what the purpose of this particular journey is.


Whilst it may take each person a lifetime to work this out this is what pre-determined destiny feels like. But the beauty of this is free will because it is this that enables anyone, and everyone, to change their chosen path from what may seemed all worked out.


If your path is not providing the answers and fulfilment that you want, consider that you have the power to put your free will into action and simply – change it.