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Spiritual Seeker

I’m not a joiner. You could say that I’m a hermit forced by circumstances to socialize. And, to be honest, this has put me at a bit of a disadvantage during this spiritual search. In books like Man Seeks God, Devoted, and The Unlikely Disciple, the authors get out there and get involved. They take part in worship services and interact with the faithful.

I can’t do that.

I could blame it on crippling anxiety. Or, I could say I just don’t have time. Both of those are true. But, it mostly boils down to the fact that I don’t want to get involved with a faith in that sort of  significant way until I am sure that it is a path that works for me.

I am getting involved in little ways that allow me to stay within my comfort zone. I’ve written before about Christian-based online parenting seminars I’ve taken part in. I’m also reading holy books, and having some discussions with friends who follow different faiths. Also, because my son attends a Catholic school, I’ve been forced to brush up on some teachings from my (Presbyterian) upbringing.

One of my favourite ways of getting my toes wet in a faith is the Torah Stitch by Stitch project. Each participant is stitching four verses from the Torah, which will later be assembled into a large scroll. My verses are Genesis 21:19-22, which read:

Then God opened her eyes, and she saw a well of water. And she went and filled the skin with water and gave the boy a drink.  And God was with the boy, and he grew up. He lived in the wilderness and became an expert with the bow.  He lived in the wilderness of Paran, and his mother took a wife for him from the land of Egypt.  At that time Abimelech and Phicol the commander of his army said to Abraham, “God is with you in all that you do.

Now, to be totally honest, I don’t see myself converting to Judaism. I like bacon cheeseburgers too much. But, I am enjoying the meditative process of stitching a piece of a holy book. I consider myself a very proficient cross stitcher, but my knowledge of Hebrew is limited to the tiny bit I’ve picked up through tarot-related Kabalah studies. So, I’m having to pay very close attention to my stitching. It is refreshing and enlightening, and I’m also combining one of my favourite activates with my spiritual search.

I’m curious as to how Pagan Pages readers combine their faith and their hobbies. I’d love to hear about any projects you’re working on, especially wide-reaching projects like Torah Stitch by Stitch.