BElieve in YOUrself (and the struggles I had)
This is my first submission for a crafty needlework article and I almost started over as this project was not my favourite since I had many struggles with it, but the one I chose kept telling me to believe in myself, and so I persevered and finished it. I will walk you through the process and my obstacles and end with the finished item. My next one will be a very pagan one as I have already started designing the pattern to stitch and am looking forward to being able to actually show off my stitching ability. I feel like even though this one is a bit of an embarrassment for my collection, the message stands strong and I refused to give up.
The inspiration comes from kincavelkrosses.files.wordpress.com . The design is beautiful and I loved the stars all around it, but I wanted to make it a bit different. I wanted to focus on the font itself and I’ve had a fabric lying around for a while that I thought would look beautiful and fun so I decided to get rid of the stars. So, I drew up a new design. I made the font bigger and more bold, and changed the colours to pink and blue. I used graph paper for my design, but it went a little over the edge. But I had my foundation. I put my fun fabric in my embroidery hoop and started working, believing in myself that I could do this, and make it look great.
During the time of making this cross stitch life threw many curveballs at me and I ended up making this while in the hospital. It gave me something to do, and even though I felt defeated at times, I was in a good place for positive reinforcement. The fabric typically used for cross stitch is called Aida fabric, and I love it! But I found this red and white polka dot fabric a while back that had squares and it seemed like I’d try and make something pretty with it, even though I had never strayed from Aida before. But I’m always up for trying new things and I loved the look of it.
It was moving along quite nicely and I had the first part done. The dots were harder to work through than I thought and the threads of the fabric moved around a lot. I backstitched around the letters in black to help keep them in place and to also make the pink and blue pop more from the background… then I moved on to the second line. I stitched the y,o and u and was extremely unhappy with how they turned out. The letters were wonky and not the same size. It looked awful and ruined the whole look of the piece. Now, I decided to rip out (or frog as we say in the stitching world) all the work I did and start the second line over again. But boy, did that mess it up! As you can see in the picture the seam-ripping did not go well. This fabric clung to the thread and the dots, covered in ink, were simply unrepairable. I wanted to throw the piece across the room and start all over. But after some deep breathing & hope I could still salvage it it, I continued on.
Because I was in the hospital I was limited on a few things. I did not have fabric paint to re-do the dots, so I used a white out pen. I threaded needle with pink and finished the first part of the second line. It was still ugly as the fabric was torn, but believe it or not, it looked better than what it had. I had gaps I tried to fix, but somethings could not be repaired. Once I was done with the pink, I switched to the blue, and managed to make that look petty good. I back stitched the bottom line and felt a bit better, hoping others wouldn’t notice the massive mistakes made in the one section.
Looking at it now all I can see is the errors and mistakes I have made but I am my own worst critic. I still think the polka dot fabric is cute, but I won’t be using it for cross stitch again any time soon. I sealed it off with some orange felt and hot glue when I got discharged from the hospital and decided to hang this piece by my craft room as a reminder to never give up, believe in myself and to be myself as well.
So even though this is a piece I’m not overly proud of I feel like the inspirational image got me through this. It was a big learning adventure for me as well and I’m glad I gave the fabric a go after having it for over a year. My next piece will be a bit different, and a lot more pagan. I look forward to sharing that adventure with you all this summer. Just remember to believe in yourself and above all, just BE YOU!
About the Author:
Merry meet! I’m Jazz and I’m a Canadian oddball. I love roller derby, kickboxing, spending time with my dog and husband & love all things art, craft and pagan!
I was raised by a Roman Catholic family but discovered Buddhism, then Paganism while in elementary school and have followed the Pagan path ever since.
My main deity is Gaia as she approached me in a dream and I feel a very strong connection to her.
I love working with runes and absorbing knowledge and working on my never ending book of shadows.
I have always been drawn to the arts & have done many crafts and randomness for as long as I can remember. I find it peaceful and it helps settle my mind. I enjoy drawing, painting, cross stitching, doll making, jewelry making and more! I hope to spread my love and passions with others and put as much positivity in the world as possible.