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The Hardest Thing About a Druid Path:

The Pagan Divide from the World

 

I’ve been on a druid path since 1982, nearly forty years. And right from the very first moment, during a small ritual on Mother’s Day in 1982, I felt the Goddess come in to lead me, a Goddess no one had mentioned in my entire life before that. Growing up, I lived within a Christian framework, until I was 35 and felt intensely drawn to read about Celtic times and lore, learning about the Goddess as I explored. And She began to show up in my quiet times or just before I fell asleep, too. After a while, I began to speak of Her to others. But this turned out to be a really good way to observe the distortions of Christianity first hand and to experience immediate ostracism! For it seems that whenever I mention the Goddess to non-pagans, there is usually immediate coldness, instant recoil, anger, and/or judgement. As a light worker, I’m trained to see shadows in a person’s energy field. And when I refer to the Goddess, I notice strong energy changes happening in non-pagan folks around me, shadow energies rising up (usually from their abdomens, seat of the unconscious), just before people begin to cold shoulder me or start calling me names. So, I know it’s their own fears these folks are primarily responding to, not me. But understanding this doesn’t make it fun to be treated this way, to be told my pagan inclinations are contemptible. This has been the most difficult thing on my long druid path (not counting all the fears that have come into my life for healing over the years, another whole topic). And as I see it, this is the main boundary separating druids and the rest of the world, the Goddess.

I, too, had misgivings about the Lady at the very beginning, having absorbed the general societal negativity toward the old ways. Where does all this negativity come from, for Goddess sake? Let’s think about that for a minute. What are pagans really being blamed for, anyway? We all know that the Christian leadership gave in to an empire impulse in around 450AD, taking on a vested interest in making money saving souls. In order to make this work, they had to pretend that Christianity was the only way to salvation, so everyone would pay for Christian absolution and guarantees of getting in to heaven someday. And because the wise women of former days would never have swallowed this, these wise ones had to be moved out of the way. We all know this story, so I won’t repeat it here. And I have no wish to cause further divisions bringing all this up again, either, just the opposite, in fact. There must be a solution somewhere.

In my healing work over many years, I’ve come to understand that humanity has lived through various ages on earth. Before about 3,000 BCE, the world was matriarchal, the Goddess ruled. We steeped in and learned about closeness to the earth, acceptance of whatever came along in life, community, tribe, and family in those days. (But there was a lot of misuse here, too, sacrifice and ritual abuse mainly, every tradition having its own distortions needing to be healed). The rise of Christianity brought the switch to patriarchal times that we’ve been living in since. In this masculine age, we are learning about independence, intelligence, setting standards, action, work outside the home, lessons of power and money. And both ages were meant to happen exactly as they did, humanity needing to absorb the teachings, both feminine and masculine within. And each age has built its own fears into each one of us deep within. So, how do we deal with these old intense fears about the Goddess that still keep Her, and us, held outside the rest of the world’s acceptance? For it’s certainly time for Her to rise again and take Her place beside the God as an equal with Her own powers, directives in life, and regencies in the cosmos.

Knowing that the fears most folks harbor against the Goddess are based on complete illusion, from past life experiences they have yet to heal, helps me greatly. And I do not react in kind, ever. I don’t push away or speak from a space of fear or anger, for I feel in some small way, I represent the real Goddess, the truth of the old ways, and wise women in general. So, I speak with calm respect, explaining that I had a lot of fears about Her, too, on my own path, how these were slowly melted down with healing after healing over many years. And then I speak of the Goddess truths I learned along the way; how rich Her tenderness is, how She comes in to hold me when I am especially harsh with myself, Her feathered fingers on my temples just before I go to sleep, the sacred power of Her love for my inner child and feminine especially. I say that She rules intimacy and nature, rest and comfort, and my life is so much more balanced now after I slowed down and stopped rushing around! I say these things with utter conviction born of 38 years of feeling the Goddess by my side.

Then I explain that I had an inner wise woman who was completely dead to me until I began my pagan path, for those inner feminine roots went all the way back to matriarchal days, and I had to go back there to bring her to life, to reawaken my intuition, to remember how to heal with light, to work with flower essences and plants, to embody wisdom, to talk with trees, rivers, stones, and animals, so the entire world came to life in a whole new magical way. How much better off everyone would be if their inner wise woman was alive and well! And how very impoverished I was before the Goddess came into my life. And as I speak, I am fervently hoping all this is melting down that old divide in my listeners. I hope it does the same for you as well. It’s way past time.

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About the Author:

Jill Frew Ph.D. is a Clinical Psychologist and energy/light healer, who has followed a druid path of enlightenment for over 30 years. She is founder of The Celtic Heaven School, a nine-month program that teaches druidry, ascension, and healing. And she is author of the Alba Reborn Trilogy (the life story of a druid priestess and priest in BCE Scotland and their teachings of enlightenment), A Guidebook to Druidry, and Light Healing for Children. CelticHeaven.com